Fall in love with,who

Fall in love with, who can see your wrinkles because of laughing. Fall in love with, who can see the happiness and sadness in your eyes. Fall in love with, who knows when you are sad or happy. Fall in love with, who doesn't need to ask because understands your whole world. Fall in love with, who loves your smile. Fall in love with, who loves you when you are a "home dragon". Fall in love with, who inspires you. Fall in love with, who sees your best but helps you to improve. Fall in love with, who respects you. Fall in love with, who loves you when ypu are dressed up for a date. Fall in love with, who loves your Garfield T-shirt at home. Fall in love with who doesn't care what you wear. Fall in love with, who has eyes like mirror where yiu can see yourself. Fall in love with, who cares about you. Fall in love with, who youbcan rely on in good and in bad. Fall in love with, who is partner in crime. Fall in love with, who can make you laugh. Fall in love with, who wipes your tears. Fall in love with, who has tears with you. Fall in love with, who knows what you like. Fall in love with who wants to be with you.  Fall in love with, who doesn't leave. Fall in love with, who is not scared of anything. Fall jn love with, who is scared to lose you. Fall in love with who is brave enough to be with you. Fall in love with, who wants to break your walls around your heart. Fall in love with, who wants to see your soul. Fall in love with who never gives up on you. Fall in love with, who sees you 2 can move mountains together. Fall in love with, who doesn't care about social status. Fall in love with, who loves you. Fall in love with who lives life. Fall in love with, who loves smiling. Fall in love with, who is humble. Fall in love with, who is there. Fall in love with, who understands you went through hell and still there. Fall in love with who is patient. Fall in love with, who you can trust. Fall in love with, who tells all the secrets. Fall in love with, who is thesunshine on your rainy days.

Fall in love with, who REALLY sees you...

Extreme

Five years ago exactly I decided I will run in the following summer my first official marathon in the city where I grew up. I already knew I will move to England, but I didn't leave this idea behind. I had many half marathons, longer distances, and just distances. Running heals me no matter what happens, it still does. So the only chance was to choose the Extrememan, it is a long distance triathlon race, so I got the running part which I needed: almost 43 kms

I moved in October, and then I started my training with my coach online, I could have never done this without him. :) 

I was working all the time, mentally I was not very well during the training or not always. The weather was also challanging for me: in UK the weather is much more different than at home.  More like running friendly.

I clearly remember the day when I went to sign in: my dad came with me, I got my registration bag, I was so proud to be part of this which I had been dreamig about since I was a kiddo. I always loved triathlon, so I guess that's why. 

I remember I could sleep well, packed my bag and went to the swimming part to another city, came back, cycling started soon. It took a couple of hours when our cyclist gave me the chip. Then my time came. I never forget the swapping. My adrenalin level was so high, got my bib, chip and lets go. The chip was on my ankle. Then I left the depot, and I started to see my ex classmates from primary school, other people who I knew since my childhood. The first part was quite "easy" . It was 35 degrees but I got really lucky: the sun was hidden a bit so it made a bit better for me. The half marathon was very quick for me, so I think I had the best time ever.

My sister showed up, brought for me everything what I asked to bring me. It was very hot. Altogether 8 circles, after a while felt like forever. Then I reached the point when it really started to hurt. Like really... It was around 35 kms. I felt I need salt tablets and water. I couldnt eat more. I just asked my sister for these. I got better. :) She really supported me a lot, talked to me as much as she could. Then the last half circle just came. I never forget my coach and my sister were next to each other by accident and they cheered me at the same time. They didnt know each other, after I got the question from both. :) Then I reached the finish line. I heard my name, I heard the last chipping. 

The feeling is unbelievable when you hear your name, no matter what place you get. The only person who I was always racing with it was myself. From that marathon, I got one thing: I can do whatever and whenever I want to if I want to. I needed to be very strong mentally, it was hot, it was painful, the chip cut my ankle. I was very proud and happy what I have done  well, and I will always remember for everyone who was there from my childhood and cheered me. Sport is the best thing where people hold each others' hands and happy for each other. The biggest thank you is for my sister and for my coach of course.  :) so no matter what you are going through, you can always step up and not leave to drag down yourself. The only question is: you want it? Do you wanna "hear" your name? It does not need to be paralleled with sport, it can be anything. Just need to go for it and break out. 

Where life ends

Today I had the chance to visit one of the most famous historical place in the world: Auschwitz. I won't write about the historical background what happened, because we all know that. Everyone needs to visit this place once in a life to realize what life means.

When I entered, the atmosphere has a radiation already: sadness. Pure sadness. All the barracks were designed with the world famous German precision (in and out). Same sizes, same measurements. The whole area is surrounded by electrical chain - link fence. I was just walking and walking among the barracks, studying all the museum information what I got there. I kept constantly thought about those people who were walking towards the unknown and I am walking on the same way where they HAD TO.
The most emotional building was the crematorium for me. The door is a simple wooden door. Behind this simple door there were millions of lives taken. Walking through the actual gas chamber brought all of my emotions to the surface. I cannot even imagine what and how they felt. Closed with many other hundreds of people and wait for the "shower" what they have been told. Carry on with the steps, I reached the crematorium where the bodies were burnt. I seriously have never seen anything like this in my whole life before, or maybe my subconscious did a really good job in my brain. Only two rooms in a building, but if those walls can tell the stories, I might would cry my eyes off. The soot is still on the walls, the whole place just made me think.
Of course I had a visit in barrack 18. This is the building where the story is about the Hungarian Holocaust. There is a corner where millions of glass tiles are on the floor representing the broken house windows, shop windows, and in the middle there was a wreath with the Hungarian colored flag. I literally had to turn away from all the other people not to see my face and (I think) my tears. All the millions of glasses on the floor look like diamonds. All of those diamonds are human lives which were taken. All of those diamonds were unique because there are no two things that are the same.
I was very young when I started to read about Auschwitz. I watched movies, asked a lot about this my dad. This is a must place, I am 100% sure for everybody. I just got to the consequence: nobody asked these people what they want - obviously. There was just a "mind blowing idea" about this, how awesomely we can change the world. Well, it was very profitable for medical science. If I actually think about the morality, let's see. So people's life were sealed from one day to the other one. In this case, I never know what tomorrow brings. Lives were cruelly taken, personal possessions were stolen which were earned by hard work, families were torn. This place just proved me how much love, faith and loyalty mean, and they walk hand in hand. I can talk about siblings, parents, grandparents, whoever. If one died, the other did not want to live anymore - went into the chamber for example. Families or even a completely unknown were supported by each other. I also had a period in my life when "I did not have time" for my family. It changed since a while (I am getting older I guess :D), and this place really opened my eyes: you never know what happens tomorrow. My consequence is this one: no matter what happened, things always can be fixed. There is only one idea or bad influence is enough if we leave ourselves to drag down. No, never. The most important people are always those who wants to give you the most on a positive way and never leave you for a minute even if you go wrong. People, who have real love and honest feelings for you. Never wait to express and realize these things, and tell everything till it's not too late.
Another bucket list place is ticked.... with loads of emotions and thoughts. This was my point of view regarding this, find yours.